WAL-MART EMPLOYEE TRAMPLED TO DEATH:::November 29, 2008 New York.
i agree that this is a very tragic accident. this is terrible, but you cant seriously tell me that any one of us is going to walk away being truely perminantly touched. this may seem cold, but in a month the feelings will fade. i wonder if you even now, could remember the deceased's name?
soon, his death will solely be a statistic. sure, you put on your sad face, and feel some sympathy, but how real is that sympathy?
""yes that was a tragedy, it shouldnt have happened.poor unfortunate soul. what a terrible thing to happen, think of his family... if i was there, i would have stopped, those people who trampled him are hearless and solely ruled by greed for fake consumer items""
feelings like the above went through many a head, including mine during class, and many people felt strongly about the death.
but you go back to your happy little life easily and dont spare another thought to Mr. Damour. the truth about life is that things like this happen every day. we can not even begin to properly feel the devistation that could be felt.
many people looked down on the tramplors. you assume the best of yourself, thinking that you would, of corse, stopped to save him. when in reality ask yourself again. would you?
i can sympathize with the mob at the scene. they were not thinking "oh look, an man on the floor, i will continue to race on, nevermind if i happen to step on him" they were most likely focused on their goal item(s) and much like driving on the highway, when you are concentrated on what is to come, you may miss the many small dead rodent carcasses at the sides of the road. or in the middle of the road. it is just a nameless lump between you and your goal, and it can be overpassed easily, without sparing much thought.
these crowd members were not looking to harm the man, they might not have even noticed him.i also think that many of the crowd members just assumed he would be helped by someone else. this shruging of athority and responcibility is what they should be charged for, not murder. they all assume that someone else will help him, so they continue on.
this is much like the example neuzil has mentioned before. there is a woman who is attacked in a street sorrounded by apartments. her attacker retreats, fearing being heard, which he was, because there were many witnesses to the attack in the sorrounding buildings. and yet no one calls 911. they all assume someone else will call it in, and the attack goes unreported and no one goes out to help the woman. stuck in harms way, the woman can not get help, and the attacker comes back, and this time kills her. the witnesses should not be tried for murder, just because they didnt call 911, but they should take some blaim. this too was a tragic event. no one allerted athorities because they assumed someone else would take the innitiative. back to wal mart, the members of the crowd may have shirked the responcibility of helping, thinking someone 'better qualified' would help soon.
and ofcorse, this is assuming that the members of the crowd were even really in control of their own actions. it is possible that the surge of the crowd prevented them from properly controling their actions.
all in all, i do not think that everyone who so much as steped on Mr. Damour should be prosecuted. this was an accident, and since it was on such a large scale, it should not be treated as a murder. i hope i made you think more. has this really affected you? will you remember it in months even years to come? and if it did affect you, what are you going to do with that new knowledge? this story certinly made me think.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
copying morals
we lie, cheat, and steal. i cant say i haven't, and neither can anyone else alive. well, unless there is still a bubble boy out there... if so, im rather interested to meet him.
moral standards are definatly changing, and judging one moral code with another is rather dicey. morals are created by the society who follow them, and as the hoi polloi change so will the moral standards. who are we to say what is right anyways? the morals of as recently as last century are now considered grotesque, and who can say which of our standards will be gawked at by future generations. also, by having an existing moral code that is widely agreed upon, yes, we create stability and guidelines, but we also stifle progression and individuality. many people accept the morals of society without really stopping to think about what they mean. we accept the values as right because that is what everyone else accepts and has accepted.
i believe that more people should take the time to cultivate their own beliefs and morals, not follow the norm. think for yourself people.
but then again, if you do not have the courage to do so, your loss.
back to copying. i personally do not have any problem with it. i admitt i am being rather selfish in saying this, but i dont mind when people copy. when i do not do the work and copy i realize what i am doing and i would normally go back and make sure i do understand what i hurridly copied earlier. moreover, if they choose to work off others and not learn it themselves, all the more chance i will advance ahead of them when i do the work. its not hurting me when they are not learning. all the better for me to triumph with.
but i can sympathize with those i see in the halls copying, and since there isnt curve grading here, it does not affect me much. i do it, you do it, we let it happen. thats life.
moral standards are definatly changing, and judging one moral code with another is rather dicey. morals are created by the society who follow them, and as the hoi polloi change so will the moral standards. who are we to say what is right anyways? the morals of as recently as last century are now considered grotesque, and who can say which of our standards will be gawked at by future generations. also, by having an existing moral code that is widely agreed upon, yes, we create stability and guidelines, but we also stifle progression and individuality. many people accept the morals of society without really stopping to think about what they mean. we accept the values as right because that is what everyone else accepts and has accepted.
i believe that more people should take the time to cultivate their own beliefs and morals, not follow the norm. think for yourself people.
but then again, if you do not have the courage to do so, your loss.
back to copying. i personally do not have any problem with it. i admitt i am being rather selfish in saying this, but i dont mind when people copy. when i do not do the work and copy i realize what i am doing and i would normally go back and make sure i do understand what i hurridly copied earlier. moreover, if they choose to work off others and not learn it themselves, all the more chance i will advance ahead of them when i do the work. its not hurting me when they are not learning. all the better for me to triumph with.
but i can sympathize with those i see in the halls copying, and since there isnt curve grading here, it does not affect me much. i do it, you do it, we let it happen. thats life.
Friday, November 28, 2008
thanksgiving
the farm wz so fun. i got there and only tommy wz up so we went and woke up all of my cousins, and then we all hung out for a while, played some videogames (like this one cool james bond one where i could be a helicoptor!!) and me and nohema marie made this crazy commerical, it wz funny. and totally redic. lol ola.. lol haha.
then we had thxgivin lunch, and it wz basically reallllly yummy. and colorful! my aunt nohema makes the best mashed potatoes ever, and those were delish. and there were also these delishious cranberries, but i cant eat too many or i feel cranberry overload. and aunt barb made cabbage, which sounds.. like eh, but it wz this beautiful color of purple so i took some and it wz actually pretty good. and also corn and fruit salad, and turkey of course, and gravy but the mashed potatoes ddont really need anything, and stuffing, which i actually ate this year. normally i dont like it but i decided to try some and it wz ok! hm yeah and thats basically it for lunch. oh and rolls!
then after lunch we all went out for a hike so it wz just me and christian and tommy and nohema marie and jared and sarah. so we went down to the pond and it wz frozen over so we went iceskating ish. it wz mostly just walking on the ice. the pond is prolly about as big as a fourth of the gym? there wz about an inch and a half to two inches of pure ice on top, so we were fine, but it did crack a bit when everyone wz on. but just menacing noises, no real breakage. and there were little fish still alive under the ice, and some were swimming around, and some were just hiding. tommy found this one pretty big one that wz aoubt the size of all your fingers together and we thought it wz dead bc it wz laying on its side until we saw it move a bit. and ahh it wz still alive, and i cant figure out if it wanted to be there or if it had gotten caught by the stick and the ever thickening ice.
so after hanging out there for a while, we went over to the creek, which wznt iced and we just navigated it going towards the cliffs. there wz a bunch of fallen trees to climb over and a few times we had to move some of them to places where we couldnt jump from sand bank to sand bank. and when we had to use waking sticks to help ballance freedom tried to eat the sticks. he has some wierd love of wood.. lol. like he will try to eat tree stumps and fallen logs and lol its just hilarious. cept when his chosen wood is the one you are using to precariously ballance on a log over ice cold water.. hahah. so we finally got to the part of the creek directly under the cliffs and tommy and christian built a log road/bridge/thing and crossed the creek and climbed up to the top. the threw down some huge trunks, and made the bridge better. now let me impress upon you the steepness of the cliff. when i say cliff i mean cliff. its like 75degrees vertical and its mosty loosly packed dirt and rock and some fallen logs or saplings trying to hang on for dear life. lol so anyways, its just a feat getting up,. and comming down is evn crazier. lol. so yea, that wz fun to see.
then we walked through this logging field ( gran and poppy had loggers come last summer and log some good trees for money ) and that wz fun bc its just like this field with tall grass and random logs to climb on top of. so before going back to the house we went back to the pond and we made thisp retty big hole inthe ice. it wz fun. so, we got back and decided to hav pie, (pumpkin, my mom made it and brought a bunch of pies) and play uno. it wz getting late so we played for a while and then had some flan, which aunt nohema makes realllly well, shes actually from mexico, so she is amazing at baking stuff like that. so we had flan, talked and played another game of uno and then it wz late and dark and we had to go home. and.. i guess i fell asleep in the car, but i really remember not falling asleep... like, i thought i wz still semi awake..? idk. but apparentley my mom asked me aquestion and i didnt answer.. so i guess i did fall asleep. it wz cool tho, bc i wz watching the stars, you can really see them well out on country roads. so yes, i got home, took a shower. and rachel says shell pick me up at 11:15 ish, bc we are going black friday shopping!!! YAY! and then i started typing this. whoooo. lol
then we had thxgivin lunch, and it wz basically reallllly yummy. and colorful! my aunt nohema makes the best mashed potatoes ever, and those were delish. and there were also these delishious cranberries, but i cant eat too many or i feel cranberry overload. and aunt barb made cabbage, which sounds.. like eh, but it wz this beautiful color of purple so i took some and it wz actually pretty good. and also corn and fruit salad, and turkey of course, and gravy but the mashed potatoes ddont really need anything, and stuffing, which i actually ate this year. normally i dont like it but i decided to try some and it wz ok! hm yeah and thats basically it for lunch. oh and rolls!
then after lunch we all went out for a hike so it wz just me and christian and tommy and nohema marie and jared and sarah. so we went down to the pond and it wz frozen over so we went iceskating ish. it wz mostly just walking on the ice. the pond is prolly about as big as a fourth of the gym? there wz about an inch and a half to two inches of pure ice on top, so we were fine, but it did crack a bit when everyone wz on. but just menacing noises, no real breakage. and there were little fish still alive under the ice, and some were swimming around, and some were just hiding. tommy found this one pretty big one that wz aoubt the size of all your fingers together and we thought it wz dead bc it wz laying on its side until we saw it move a bit. and ahh it wz still alive, and i cant figure out if it wanted to be there or if it had gotten caught by the stick and the ever thickening ice.
so after hanging out there for a while, we went over to the creek, which wznt iced and we just navigated it going towards the cliffs. there wz a bunch of fallen trees to climb over and a few times we had to move some of them to places where we couldnt jump from sand bank to sand bank. and when we had to use waking sticks to help ballance freedom tried to eat the sticks. he has some wierd love of wood.. lol. like he will try to eat tree stumps and fallen logs and lol its just hilarious. cept when his chosen wood is the one you are using to precariously ballance on a log over ice cold water.. hahah. so we finally got to the part of the creek directly under the cliffs and tommy and christian built a log road/bridge/thing and crossed the creek and climbed up to the top. the threw down some huge trunks, and made the bridge better. now let me impress upon you the steepness of the cliff. when i say cliff i mean cliff. its like 75degrees vertical and its mosty loosly packed dirt and rock and some fallen logs or saplings trying to hang on for dear life. lol so anyways, its just a feat getting up,. and comming down is evn crazier. lol. so yea, that wz fun to see.
then we walked through this logging field ( gran and poppy had loggers come last summer and log some good trees for money ) and that wz fun bc its just like this field with tall grass and random logs to climb on top of. so before going back to the house we went back to the pond and we made thisp retty big hole inthe ice. it wz fun. so, we got back and decided to hav pie, (pumpkin, my mom made it and brought a bunch of pies) and play uno. it wz getting late so we played for a while and then had some flan, which aunt nohema makes realllly well, shes actually from mexico, so she is amazing at baking stuff like that. so we had flan, talked and played another game of uno and then it wz late and dark and we had to go home. and.. i guess i fell asleep in the car, but i really remember not falling asleep... like, i thought i wz still semi awake..? idk. but apparentley my mom asked me aquestion and i didnt answer.. so i guess i did fall asleep. it wz cool tho, bc i wz watching the stars, you can really see them well out on country roads. so yes, i got home, took a shower. and rachel says shell pick me up at 11:15 ish, bc we are going black friday shopping!!! YAY! and then i started typing this. whoooo. lol
Saturday, November 15, 2008
+forever
i want to feel like this forever. life is so.. wonderful. i want to sleep with you, live with you, breathe with you , be with you. forever.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
end of first tri, and theres snow
ok! so on friday, rachel and i went to our first speech tournie this year. des moines east! woot. we got fourth!!! ( and i think we totally could hav gotten 3rd. these guys from west were in easy rounds, and ryan and harrison, me and rachel, and brian trout and the aladin girl, weere all in a round, and they were in round with easy ppl, including on script ppl...) but anyways. lol it wz ok. they ended up getting second, beating ryan and harrison, which wz just bs.
so yea, anyway, that wz fun. and i met lots of new ppl. it wz pretty fun. i came home after dropping katherine off and i ate alot of food bc i wz ravenous. then i went to bed.
so this morning i wake up to a txt from joHn and hes like, so hey, whats up? im lonely. (along those lines) and i wz like yeah me too. ( today wz Just the game and daddy went to work the game AND my sis and mom went out. so i went over to his HousE and he has the nicest cat ever. she came up to me and wz all purring and stufF! It wz really sweet. so anyways, we hung out N watched scrubs and survivor man. it wz Great! and this may bE where it turns R, bc im tired of leaving out the Details! so i got there and we were cuddling watching tv and then My shirt wz off and so wz his and eeE then ... ok maybe im not up to the point where i can do r posts yet,lol bc im still like, what if anyone ever reads this? so anyways,Boy it wz Just very nice. =) fun fun.
then i came home and started all my hmwk for my ... 4 finals on monday... icky!
so yea, anyway, that wz fun. and i met lots of new ppl. it wz pretty fun. i came home after dropping katherine off and i ate alot of food bc i wz ravenous. then i went to bed.
so this morning i wake up to a txt from joHn and hes like, so hey, whats up? im lonely. (along those lines) and i wz like yeah me too. ( today wz Just the game and daddy went to work the game AND my sis and mom went out. so i went over to his HousE and he has the nicest cat ever. she came up to me and wz all purring and stufF! It wz really sweet. so anyways, we hung out N watched scrubs and survivor man. it wz Great! and this may bE where it turns R, bc im tired of leaving out the Details! so i got there and we were cuddling watching tv and then My shirt wz off and so wz his and eeE then ... ok maybe im not up to the point where i can do r posts yet,lol bc im still like, what if anyone ever reads this? so anyways,Boy it wz Just very nice. =) fun fun.
then i came home and started all my hmwk for my ... 4 finals on monday... icky!
Saturday, November 1, 2008
halloweens win
=] so, basically, halloweens win. like, wow. last halloween and this halloween! but i suppose technically today wznt halloween. wow, and being technically technical, (since its 1:40) two days ago wz the real halloween. and yesterday wznt halloween either. but im still counting yesterday as today. soo. well basically on the real halloween, friday night, i went to audrey's party. it wz at her house, and there were lots of ppl there like .. nicholse and kayla, who i either had never talked to, or hadnt seen for a long time. we hung out and played mafia out on audrey's driveway around her fire pit thing, and we went back inside to play hide and go seek inthe dark!! it wz fun.
so thismorning i woke up at .. two. lol so this afternoon technically.. i woke up and i had txts from like evryone. ( i had turned my phone off over night/morning until i woke up and turned it back on) so, i had a txt and a message from jack, somthin from fortmann, and a txt from john saying he wz free till 2 when he had to work ane he wanted to kno if i could come over. and i basically wz soo pissed at that bc i wz like, wow he basically just said he wanted to hang with me and i wz sleeping.. so anyways, then i got ready for cats party
(i wz a witch) green stripey tights and evrything! lol. so anyways i went to cats, and rachel, aaron and sam were already there, then more ppl came and we were hangin out, and then finally i think evryone wz there( cat sam astrid sonya jamie rachel graham aaron jared .. i think thats it) we were watching saw 1 and that wz fun. then jack called me and wz like hey you should come over to john's and we can all hang out. and so i left and then went over to johns. his parents were home so we all went Back to jacks. (we had to follow jack, bc i didnt kno the way to jacks house) s basically when we got there we alL went back to jacks backyard and he went to go get somting and me and john kinda were making Out and then his cat came and wz all purring and that wz funny! and then we just hung out for a While, and then jack showed us this cool tent area in his bit of trees and we got a blanket and me and john Just went back there and had fun for a long time. and then jack had other ppl over like britany,megan and this One guy from my math class and this other guy i didnt kno, and then they were drinkin Butter and jack had like, 9 sticks. it wz like, woah. but me and john didnt, bc we dont like it. lol. and so we hung out witht hem but then it wz time for me to be home, and i still wz at jakcs so i took john home and then i went home too.
basically, halloween winns. =]
so thismorning i woke up at .. two. lol so this afternoon technically.. i woke up and i had txts from like evryone. ( i had turned my phone off over night/morning until i woke up and turned it back on) so, i had a txt and a message from jack, somthin from fortmann, and a txt from john saying he wz free till 2 when he had to work ane he wanted to kno if i could come over. and i basically wz soo pissed at that bc i wz like, wow he basically just said he wanted to hang with me and i wz sleeping.. so anyways, then i got ready for cats party
(i wz a witch) green stripey tights and evrything! lol. so anyways i went to cats, and rachel, aaron and sam were already there, then more ppl came and we were hangin out, and then finally i think evryone wz there( cat sam astrid sonya jamie rachel graham aaron jared .. i think thats it) we were watching saw 1 and that wz fun. then jack called me and wz like hey you should come over to john's and we can all hang out. and so i left and then went over to johns. his parents were home so we all went Back to jacks. (we had to follow jack, bc i didnt kno the way to jacks house) s basically when we got there we alL went back to jacks backyard and he went to go get somting and me and john kinda were making Out and then his cat came and wz all purring and that wz funny! and then we just hung out for a While, and then jack showed us this cool tent area in his bit of trees and we got a blanket and me and john Just went back there and had fun for a long time. and then jack had other ppl over like britany,megan and this One guy from my math class and this other guy i didnt kno, and then they were drinkin Butter and jack had like, 9 sticks. it wz like, woah. but me and john didnt, bc we dont like it. lol. and so we hung out witht hem but then it wz time for me to be home, and i still wz at jakcs so i took john home and then i went home too.
basically, halloween winns. =]
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Lithium Iron (LiFe)
ok, so ive talked to jack, who says i need to make a move if i want john. so i txted him and hes actually talking to me now. lol. oh, but aaron really fast. well yea, he told rachel two days ago that he didnt really like me like 'that' which wz like, well! one problem solved. lol. he had nice timing tho, bc i had told rachel the night before that i didnt like him like that. lol. so anyways, hes like, kinda ignorishing me now. which is too bad, if we cant still be friends thats no fun. im glad anna and him are back together. end of that story.
so yea, ive been talkin to john and also fortmann, but in idffenret ways. and idk, i kinda got roped into going to a movie with fortmann. we were going to go to saw 5 but his parents thought it wznt an appropreate movie. lol. thats so funny. anyway, we went to see eagle eye, which wz good! i love shilo labeuf. which i dont kno how to spell for my life. lol. and he wanted a kiss after, but i didnt bc it wz just as friends.
wow im such a terrible person lol. im leading all these guys on alllll the time. like ogi.. did i tell you about that? no, i dont think i did, and ill not go there..
so basically tomorrow is halloween, and last halloween wz sooo fun. =]. firki stss. =) whee. so anyways, audrey is having a halloween party at her house from 615 till 12 so im goin to that and then i think ill leave early and go to jacks till curfew. yay.
and then saturday cat is having a halloween party at her house! wheee!
oh and this year for halloween im going to be a cowgirl. i hav a hat and boots which maia let me borrow, and a white tie shirt and a jean skirt! it will be fun!! woot! well, ill ttyl.
so yea, ive been talkin to john and also fortmann, but in idffenret ways. and idk, i kinda got roped into going to a movie with fortmann. we were going to go to saw 5 but his parents thought it wznt an appropreate movie. lol. thats so funny. anyway, we went to see eagle eye, which wz good! i love shilo labeuf. which i dont kno how to spell for my life. lol. and he wanted a kiss after, but i didnt bc it wz just as friends.
wow im such a terrible person lol. im leading all these guys on alllll the time. like ogi.. did i tell you about that? no, i dont think i did, and ill not go there..
so basically tomorrow is halloween, and last halloween wz sooo fun. =]. firki stss. =) whee. so anyways, audrey is having a halloween party at her house from 615 till 12 so im goin to that and then i think ill leave early and go to jacks till curfew. yay.
and then saturday cat is having a halloween party at her house! wheee!
oh and this year for halloween im going to be a cowgirl. i hav a hat and boots which maia let me borrow, and a white tie shirt and a jean skirt! it will be fun!! woot! well, ill ttyl.
Friday, October 24, 2008
elemental (II) continued..
ok, so after a day and half of really sweet txt messages i decided to break it off iwth fortmann. i did this for many reasons, most of which i still do not know, and all of which are pretty unexpalinable. lol. so i broke up with him in a very nice way and stuff. then i talked to jack, and he basically told me he wanted to ask me out and that he had told the rest of the band, meaning john and zach. i wz like, well no, i really dont want to get into that right now, so that wz ok. hm. after that they all semi ignored me, cept fortmann. who stil randomly txts me. he does get pts for being really sweet. so as of now, ( i think that is basically up to the other posts that i made out of order) im not sure whats going on with the whole me and aaron thing, or the whole me and anyone else thing. but that is my guy story of this year up till the current. and now i really am goingto bed.
more updates later.
more updates later.
its october guys
hm, so i dont know where i wz, so there will be large gaps in this story. ok so oh me and aaron hung out last weekend. we met at java house and i got hotchocolate, and then we went to the mall. we walked around for a bit to kill time bc the movie started at 9:50, and when we were walking john wz working at orange julius and i wz like.. oh.. and we went over and talked to him and stuff, and idk what wz up. and then we kept walking and we decided to go play ultimate outside of the mall! we got aarons frisbee and started playing the the parking lot inthe back corner by best buy. it wz sosososososo fun. very fun. so fun that we broke his frisbee. lol. into many pieces. it wz fun. we gave it a proper burial and prayed to the frisbee gods. then we went to sheels where we saw matt and got a new frisbee. and we played with that, and then we went to the movie. Nick and Nora's infinante playlist, good movie. sour patch kids. back left. mwah. etc. then he too me home and sparkie barked at us when we were in the driveway. so yeah, that wz pretty fun.
ok so hm after that, idk. oh, so this thursday wz a non advisory day. and they are my new fav days. i never realized how boring my lunch is normally. wow. so i had lunch with alot of ppl, including john =) ASIDE:: ok, wow, it seems like im obsessed with him, im not, its just... i do like him. there wz a long time in between this post and the last one that didnt evn talk to him and he basically ignored me ::END OF ASIDE so it wz me and grace and abi and jack and john and jamie and fortmann (who i havnt updated talking about but oh well..) and rachel and aud and crystal and rica and alot of ppl! it wz jus tufn.
about me and aaron. hes in my eb and ap gov and english. (wow thats alot lol) and hes fun and all, but i dont really like him like.. that. you kno? i feel kinda bad bc of the him and anna stuff. and hes super fun to hang with and stuff, but its just that i dont feel that way most of the time for him. and hes being slow about doing anything with us, so im guessing its not going to happen.
oh and im having problems keeping myself on one guy. well, no. on a low number of guys. guys are just rather fun to hang around with. like recently i really like all of the previously mentioned and sam, steve, jamie, and jerry (ish) hes just cool. and i hav this need to prove to myself someitng, bc i like hanging out with guys who i want to notice me. like, blah i evn am aware of guys like kui. its crazzzy. lol.
im going to sleep now. night love <3
ok so hm after that, idk. oh, so this thursday wz a non advisory day. and they are my new fav days. i never realized how boring my lunch is normally. wow. so i had lunch with alot of ppl, including john =) ASIDE:: ok, wow, it seems like im obsessed with him, im not, its just... i do like him. there wz a long time in between this post and the last one that didnt evn talk to him and he basically ignored me ::END OF ASIDE so it wz me and grace and abi and jack and john and jamie and fortmann (who i havnt updated talking about but oh well..) and rachel and aud and crystal and rica and alot of ppl! it wz jus tufn.
about me and aaron. hes in my eb and ap gov and english. (wow thats alot lol) and hes fun and all, but i dont really like him like.. that. you kno? i feel kinda bad bc of the him and anna stuff. and hes super fun to hang with and stuff, but its just that i dont feel that way most of the time for him. and hes being slow about doing anything with us, so im guessing its not going to happen.
oh and im having problems keeping myself on one guy. well, no. on a low number of guys. guys are just rather fun to hang around with. like recently i really like all of the previously mentioned and sam, steve, jamie, and jerry (ish) hes just cool. and i hav this need to prove to myself someitng, bc i like hanging out with guys who i want to notice me. like, blah i evn am aware of guys like kui. its crazzzy. lol.
im going to sleep now. night love <3
Friday, October 3, 2008
following out of order
and im wondering if i should ask someone about the john thing. mainly zach. but i really like him too.. idk. and by ask i mean talk to. i just need a normal opinion. that knows john. aaaaah i really liked him... anyway. night for real.
out of order
kk so tonight wz the west hc game. rachel and i went down to see aaron, and he taught us how to spin the mace. but i saw john and zach and fortmann there, and john went right past me and didnt evn say hi or look at me. -sigh- aww i really liked him too... i still do. and stupid ppl asking me out... gah. he should hav done someting earlier... i just like his personality or something, its so sweet, and hes cuddly. and.. awww. he wz flirting with some other girl, someone mcandrew i think. or one of her friends.
gah, i didnt get to the jack thing yet, i will later. not this post. this is just reflection on tonight. so anyways, aaron taught me and rachel spinning stuff, and then we went up to the school with him at half time. i wz talking to justin and then i wz talking to aaron and rachel and john matt and zach were right behind us... =( he hasnt evn talked to me forever. and im like, well its his loss, he didnt make a move or antying, but ach. and hes not evn comming to homecomming =(.
anyways, back to aaron. so rach and i hung out, and then aaron had to wait for his mom to get done, so we hung out with him. i wz leaning on him but then anna came over and wz all like girlfriendy to him, and i wz like.. oh wait, i thought they were broken up?? so i stopped leaning on him, and when she left she kissed him good bye, and it wz like, um, yeah... and then when she left he said he didnt want to get back together with her.. so anyways, hes comming to hc with us, and i want him to ask me to dance.
and aww, johnn... i would pick you over anyone else i kno right now.. awwww you go off and like some other girl. =(
and grace is mad at me. for the fortmann thing. i think anna wz jelous that rachel and i were hanging out with him and so she came over and wz all girlfriend like. and i think grace is jelous too. but maybe im being too self centered? idk.
neways, tomorrow is homecomming, night!
gah, i didnt get to the jack thing yet, i will later. not this post. this is just reflection on tonight. so anyways, aaron taught me and rachel spinning stuff, and then we went up to the school with him at half time. i wz talking to justin and then i wz talking to aaron and rachel and john matt and zach were right behind us... =( he hasnt evn talked to me forever. and im like, well its his loss, he didnt make a move or antying, but ach. and hes not evn comming to homecomming =(.
anyways, back to aaron. so rach and i hung out, and then aaron had to wait for his mom to get done, so we hung out with him. i wz leaning on him but then anna came over and wz all like girlfriendy to him, and i wz like.. oh wait, i thought they were broken up?? so i stopped leaning on him, and when she left she kissed him good bye, and it wz like, um, yeah... and then when she left he said he didnt want to get back together with her.. so anyways, hes comming to hc with us, and i want him to ask me to dance.
and aww, johnn... i would pick you over anyone else i kno right now.. awwww you go off and like some other girl. =(
and grace is mad at me. for the fortmann thing. i think anna wz jelous that rachel and i were hanging out with him and so she came over and wz all girlfriend like. and i think grace is jelous too. but maybe im being too self centered? idk.
neways, tomorrow is homecomming, night!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
elemental
aiiight. so wow, so much has happened recently. ok so, first we'll go with the smart ppl stuff. well, no it fits better the other way around. ok. things in order. here we go.
so, two weeks ago was the city west game, and i wz standing next to fortmann. and we were semi flirting, but i wz just really having fun. why cant you play with guys and not hav it mean anything, serioulsy. gah. so then my facebook/internet is majorly messed, but he askes me to homecomming. but im alrready going with ppl so then i move on and idk, school is just school etc. and then so this weekend i wz at abi's party and ftmann wz txting grace saying he didnt want to come to hc bc no one would miss him, and being kinda suicidal and all. so she wz like, evryone txt him and just say you are fucking awesome! and so me and abi did. and he txts me back and is like whos this, n im like its nat. and then idk how it got started be we just started txting that night, or the next night, idk. and so i had to go home, so i do. and then later that weekend hes like, im wondering. and im like, wondering what?? and hes like wondering if it would be a good idea to ask you out. and to that (im still playing at this point) im like, well you should prolly tell me in person n all that. so hes like, ill see u monday morning after eb.
so monday we did cardio and i slipped out without him noticing me, so i didnt see him before first. jack had first open with me that day bc he told his mom he wz stuck in traffic on the interstate bc of some huge accidnet, so he got out of first period. he found me and i told him about what fortmann wz going to do, and hes like.. well you prolly should NOT. and i kinda half listen, but im not really thinking through anything at this point. jack wz saying fortmann is so manipulating, that he would do what ever he could to get what he wants, but i wz like, hah, he cant manipulate me. so after first period i went to ap gov and after apgov i wz going to my locker and fortmann wz there, so i wz like hey, and he put his arm around me and asked if i would go out with him... and i wz like. well, um. and i kinda said yes. and then i escaped, and went to chem. and then i get home that night and he has asked me to be his gf on fb, so im like wow, well..
(to be conintued)
so, two weeks ago was the city west game, and i wz standing next to fortmann. and we were semi flirting, but i wz just really having fun. why cant you play with guys and not hav it mean anything, serioulsy. gah. so then my facebook/internet is majorly messed, but he askes me to homecomming. but im alrready going with ppl so then i move on and idk, school is just school etc. and then so this weekend i wz at abi's party and ftmann wz txting grace saying he didnt want to come to hc bc no one would miss him, and being kinda suicidal and all. so she wz like, evryone txt him and just say you are fucking awesome! and so me and abi did. and he txts me back and is like whos this, n im like its nat. and then idk how it got started be we just started txting that night, or the next night, idk. and so i had to go home, so i do. and then later that weekend hes like, im wondering. and im like, wondering what?? and hes like wondering if it would be a good idea to ask you out. and to that (im still playing at this point) im like, well you should prolly tell me in person n all that. so hes like, ill see u monday morning after eb.
so monday we did cardio and i slipped out without him noticing me, so i didnt see him before first. jack had first open with me that day bc he told his mom he wz stuck in traffic on the interstate bc of some huge accidnet, so he got out of first period. he found me and i told him about what fortmann wz going to do, and hes like.. well you prolly should NOT. and i kinda half listen, but im not really thinking through anything at this point. jack wz saying fortmann is so manipulating, that he would do what ever he could to get what he wants, but i wz like, hah, he cant manipulate me. so after first period i went to ap gov and after apgov i wz going to my locker and fortmann wz there, so i wz like hey, and he put his arm around me and asked if i would go out with him... and i wz like. well, um. and i kinda said yes. and then i escaped, and went to chem. and then i get home that night and he has asked me to be his gf on fb, so im like wow, well..
(to be conintued)
Thursday, September 18, 2008
first post..
ok so, now that ive made this wonderful totally mine blog, im not going to write in it yet. besides to say that im not writing yet. i will later i promise. i actually had a blog awhile ago but i cant say whatever bc ppl i know know it is mine. i suppose it would hav been better if i had thought of some totally out of character blog name and all.. but hey, im tired and i should go to bed soon. which i will. night all. meaning no one. dont read this. ever. or spiders might devoure you in your sleep. or worse, you will continue to live and instead eat spiders... now you should think im sufficiently wierd and never want to read this again. task accomplished.
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